Beauty NEVER told

I'm sorry I can’t make you happy.

I tried

I promise I did.

There was just as much as I could do.

I saw you suffer,

I saw you cry

Believe me when I say I believed everything you said.

It wasn’t that

 It was more like there was nothing I could do.

I would have cried

I would have held you!

I don’t think that would have helped

I even went to thoughts that you might leave me,

how was I suppose to stop?

This all just happened!

That is life,  I guess life knows more than us sometimes.

I thought I had control,

control over things I didn’t even really believe yet.

I always seemed to have something to complain about,

funny how humans sometimes don’t make sense.

We ask for things we don’t even know if we want

And sacrifice ourselves to avoid conflict

The people I meet who were scared like me

We both stayed quiet.

We did nothing, some of them lied

It made it easier that way

Others never said what they feared.

Many felt hope compassion, love.

And it stopped as time passed.

We let what was once on fire

Disappear.

Its just that I saw the other kind dissolve,

Diminish,

They were all talk

None were brave

Their memories are dying

But I still remember

It’s been so long since I’ve even heard a sound

Oddly I miss them,

Surprised I still love them

In many ways

 I stay grateful to them,

A part of my inspiration

The inspirations of my poems

The heroes of my stories

They came up with this great idea

Of Beautiful things

I saw in their eyes

But it died in them

None of them remember.

Nothing was left but

The seed they left

I took it and I planted it inside

And  I let it  grow in my heart

There are the words that live in me today.

Of all of the people I loved,

 They stayed in that mold that didn’t quite fit

Lost in this life

Many unrecognizable.

I will never understand

Why people that loved us

The ones we trusted 

Left us like this,

In complete.

Incapable

I need to make it grow again

These stories must have a purpose

I take what was left behind

the smiles, that laughs

the experiences

The extra baggage they threw to the side,

 I pick it up

and I polish and make it shine

This has to live again.

I couldn’t help you,

I might never see you again

But I can say those words

You wanted the world to know

the ones you thought no one would listen

when you let hope die inside of you

they did make sense

there are all things the world needs to know

I want to  help like you helped me

When I didn’t know

Why I was here for

Who I was yet.

I want to help  you remember too!

Such beautiful things

So many different places

See Inside we are all  even more beautiful!

All good All genuine

And I miss you!

Its time to share

The stories never told

share the love

Bursting inside

the memories

that changed me

This is my tribute to beauty never told.

Enough to change the world.